until when ?

i'm fucking tired right now and almost going crazy .... my last 3 days were crazy .. i don't even think that crazy is right ... maybe turbulence ... maybe .. yeah so so right ... i had never experienced what i had gone through for the last 3 days ... like NEVER in my flying career ... shit happens and it hit me this time .. FUCK !!! am considering another option at the moment ... can't even think.. system down .. brain damaged ... heart ..... never mind about heart ... i don't have any ...

forget about what i've been through.. let's talk about something better and more positive ( trying to be Big O here - Oprah that is) am going BKK for one night only trip ... just to celebrate my new year with my X ... duh !!! 'cause no one else ask me ... then off to HND - Haneda ... as in Tokyo, Japan .. get it ? working trip ... duh again !!! what positive ? nothing positive here as i am having another meltdown moment ... or days ... will my 2012 be like this ?

Oh ok ... SPICE dinner with the boys was awesome and FABS !!! after many great years of being friends ... we are still the same ... except that everyone is getting fat ... !!! haha time to hit the gym guys ... photos ? welll have to wait for the guys to update their FB ... then i shall put some here kay ...

OK .. i'm signing off for now, gonna off my hp and the hell with the world ..I 'M TIRED !!!!! fuck you, you and you !!!!

no no no ... not u readers .... just an anger management ...

another journey

i'm not feeling well at all as i'm writing this entry to you lots ... my body system is down with fever and severe headache ... migraine that is ... haven't been hit this bad after quite a while ... nausea and vomiting comes naturally ... hehehe ..... if i'm still not doing good, i'll be heading to the clinic again later today ... not a good feeling at all ...

i've just got back from Tehran in Iran couple of days ago ... the trip was so so ... weather was cold and there was no food to eat ... well literally ... stayed there for almost a week.. a long stay in other places i would have said yay !!! but in Tehran ... errrr ... maybe no more ... thank you very much ..

however, am still gonna share some pics which i've taken for you lots ... arrived in Theran on public holiday, which means for the next two days, there were no shops opened hence no food to eat ... on another note, looking for rice could be quite an adventure ...hahah ... yes it was ... indeed .... some of us may think that Iran could be conservative .. u guys know what ? they are not ... though the ladies are all covered with "tudung" (a piece of cloth to cover head), they are allowed to show a bit of hair and mind you, they coloured their hair. They were always seen in full make up in which off course enhanced their good looks. If they are allowed to enter "miss universe", surely they will win .. u can also find couples dating at the park ... not quite sure if they are married ... i guess they are very much influenced by the Europeans 'cause Iran is not that far from the Europeans blocks ... ohhh yes, if you the chance to visit Tehran, don't forget to visit the mountains.. all covered with snow and a good place to appreciate mother nature ...

Enough about Tehran, here comes the annual dinner, my X team had a performance and i was in drag ... OMG yet again ... this time around i have more confidence and more relax as to compared to my last "drag session" a year ago in BKK. The performance was well received by the audience as we did it differently from the rest ... check out photos i've uploaded for you guys ... ok seems like i can't write anymore ... i'm going clinic again as i'm feeling so so week now ... so guys please TC and i'll be writing again soonest

P/S ;- expect great stories from JAPAN ... Merry X'mas and Happy New Year ...

that 34 !!!

finally got a bit of time to chill .. this weekend has been nothing but relaxation ... got back from Jeddah again and celebrated my 34th B'day with my best friends... ohhh did i mentioned that they took me for a dinner ... nice one... i truly enjoyed the dinner and the laughter .. a small but meaningful way to celebrate my day ... ohhh and i've bought this little something something for myself courtesy of GUCCI.. not that they gave it to me for free but hey i've decided to reward myself ..

on another note i'm kind a scared of my age ... how long can i keep my youthful looks ..

age is surely catching up on me ... i need more and more sleep to recover from my hectic schedule ... kind a crazy at times but hey that's life and i've just got to live with it ....

it's coming to the end of the year and i'm hoping to have a good X-mas ...another Gucci perhaps ...

what do i want for next year ... a simple and more meaningful life ... i gave up on trying to have a steady boyfriend instead i shall continue having an open relationship ... the one that i'm in at the moment ... hmmm ... not quite sure if i should call it a relationship ... hehehe ... anyhow i'm happy 'cause i've decided to be happy ...

hoping for more Bangkok trip... try to be nice to all of my Xs ... and try to loose more weight ...

posh gotta be fab rite ?

for you guys i've got a few photos that am gonna share with u guys ... just to keep you lots entertained rather than reading about my not so entertaining life ...

am done with the cleaning up in my room and now am gonna clean my lap top ... rearrange some files and put everything in place...

OK people , i gotta go ... have a great life will ya !!!