selamat hari raya aidil adha....

i'm writing this down at about 3am just to wish all muslim, selamat hari raya aidil adha. It's special for me this year as my aunty and cousin are here. Normally, me and mum would travel back to penang to celebrate. For my mum, aidil adha is always special as it is my birthday. well, not really, i was born on dec 1st and this year aidil adha is on the 27th nov. Little that we all know that 33 years ago(ok i'm old, i get it) my birth date and aidil adha were on the same day. So my mum was cooking and all for me and for our small family to eat. Tomorrow, after prayer ( yes i do that once in a while, so jangan kutuk or laugh ok) i'll be leaving to bangkok for my little gateway. Not that i really wanna go as my family is here but this is the only time that i can actually have a good rest before next year. It's gonna be a very busy year i think. So, no MELBOURNE as well this year. Next year or maybe this year end. Never know rite? anything is possible. Expect a lot of stories from bangkok as i'm going there alone ( james is sick so he can't go). I wanna go there and come back with a clear mind and hopefully manage to make decisions on what my future will be... another changes in career at other companies overseas, or go back flying. It's more of a decision that will make me happy in the near future. so there you go, i'll see you lots soon....

posh;- i only have one life to live and i wanna make it a happy ones.....

my mantra ... for life ...

hiding.............

so today is sunday and i'm not working... thinking about coffee and cheese cake....delish....

i'm writing in today on the issue of hiding, closeted, and denial... or whatever you may call it. The fact that there are so many gays out there and the fact that not everyone wanted to come out as they will only come out to play. here are my stories...

Fact 1

this particular person, doesn't look that gay but criticized others for being one... sounds homophobic but every night secretly, he himself is a cock loving sucker .... mind my word here

point taken :- we understand that you are scared as shit to come out but please don't criticized others for being one. Hey! i know where do you play !!!

Fact 2

doesn't have any gay qualities at all besides being handsome and tanned...hahaha met him at one of the "playground" ... he didn't recognized me off course... was in my shorts, pink t-shirt and glasses .... heheh but it's ok 'cause he just wanted it to be that way ....

Lesson:-

for whatever reason that you wanted to hide, go ahead ... "just don't pretend to hate us when you are one of us"

my condolence to those who had to be in the closet, get married with a girl and pretend to be happy due to social obligations... pity ....you know who you are !!!

posh:- i'll be out soon for coffee and cheese cake...

and he's BI !!!!

you all know that i've been a great fan of Duncan James of boy band BLUE... had a crush on him... ok ok i know he's not asian .... sorry BB just a crush (you know who you are and i'll be in BKK soon ) not quite recent he declared that he's a BI..so i have a chance when i'm London hahaha... he had a child from his previous relationship... with a girl off course... hmmmm what a relief ...

so forget about Duncan for a while... i'm off today and been thinking about going out with frens for coffee and all .... we'll see about that later ...

P/S: can't wait for my leave...a long one ...