Monday, April 18, 2011

what is the answer ?

HOW DO I LOOK ?


gosh ... there were so many things that i wanted to write about .... so here goes... U guys were fully aware that i was in in Delhi for a few days doing recruitment. It was another experience for me ... and guess what? more guys turned up for the interview rather than girls ... and off course a couple of cute ones ...ohhh yes and Delhi ... hmm the food was yum yum yum ... i was from Penang so i am very into Indian food.... the Briyani, Nan and Curry was out of this world ... truly amazing ...
the not so good part was i had argument ... not really argument ... misunderstanding with my best friend/colleague/buddy ... normally i was ok with everything but that day in plane... i lost my temper ... i left my seat just to calm myself ... but honestly i miss him ... i miss his companionship ... i haven't met him since that day as i was away to Bangkok ... but we've made up over "whatsapp" ... so Carrie as in Bradshaw was right after all ... there are all kinds of LOVE in this world ... it was not love as in Lovers but a special kind of Love .. sometimes when you are very close with someone you don't cover your true self ... you are so comfortable that you tend to show all aspects of your emotions ... so am really hoping that things will get better between the two of us ... i do ... if you happen to read this ( which i doubt ) i love you my dear friend ... and then there's Bangkok and songkran ... it was not as good as the previous years but was worth it ... i've rebuilt my relationship with my ex ... the only person that truly understands me and still being by my side after all these years ... though last year Songkran i had a fight with him as he brought his then boyfriend to Bangkok during Songkran ... will we be together again ... i don't know ... Aspa once told me that i must not be the typical Sagittarius ... only regret after i've lost what i care most ... when it was too late to tell ... too late to confess .. too late to show my emotions ... so i'm gonna take a wild card in my life and i'm gonna take chances ... from now on ... and i did ... so far ... Maybe next year am not gonna be in Bangkok but will be in Chiang mai .. heard that it is better to celebrate Songkran there ... so i'll be heading there next year .... and thanks Dej and Zeth for your warm hospitality when i was in Bangkok ... and the party at Otoko was fantastic ... what a great K-pop experience !!! and then there's a story about Peter as in Peter Han ... i have no clue if i would be taking the serious road with him ... i don't think that he is the committed type of guy .... perhaps just and FB or a re bounced guy ... i don't know but yes i did like him a lot a one point ... so am gonna continue to date everyone that comes until i find the right guy ... and then ... back to work ... have lost touch for over a week and so am trying to put my head together and to excel at work ... but as for today and tomorrow ... there's recurrent pass in which i must score a 100 % ... phew ... so please wish me good luck guys !!! am signing off now as i need to study for tomorrow's exam ... nites all and keep dancing 'till the world ends .... :)

Sunday, April 03, 2011

turning point...

note to self ... to learn to let go ... to find time/make time to meet friends on a weekly basis... to bring mum out for dinner on a weekly basis .. to be happy ... to take a chance... to fall in LOVE again ... to trust others ............ this weekend has been all good for me, had dinner withe Peter (my new man) and James. It has been a while since i last met James ... we even had lunch today as a follow up to last nite dinner ... and i've introduced him to Peter ... Peter Han ... OK ... all seems good at this point and to finally meet someone i really like from looks to everything is just WOW !!! i've also managed to watch the movie eat, pray, love ... which was amazing ... my X Jeff asked me to watch it and i did ... it reminds me of Bali ... and the fact that i haven't been there for ages ... i used to go to Bali a lot ... maybe i should reduce my trip to BKK on monthly basis and revert to Bali instead ... hmmm ... back to the movie ... i love Julia Roberts ... remember Pretty Women? love it ... eat, pray, love is like providing me the answer to what i've been looking for ... i've been searching for the same answer for years ... and i've found it ... i'm so glad that i finally did ... On another note ... i'll be leaving to Delhi next thursday for five days and then to BKK for another week... i kind a reconsidering not to go to BKK ... am gonna miss Peter ... away from him for two weeks is something that i'm not looking foward to ... it's too early to admit that i'm really into him but i know that i'm headding somewhere with him ... he was asking me to go Penang with him ... after the Songkran ... so Yes was my answer to him ... Posh :- to Songkran or not ? plans have been made and maybe i should shorten the trip ...