last updates for 2006

gosh, finally i can say this....what a year...
i've done with london...n paris
which was amazing...met a guy frm holland
yeah dutch klm crew...had a fuck in paris...amazing
had a fling in london....fabs....
Next posting will updates with pix frm paris n london
oklah.......
since i'm back in kl , there's a lot of things to be done
shld i request for new base in BKI...that kota kinabalu lah
shld i go there to start new life....
2007 will be very good year for me so shall i do that....
bet i'll ask my frens for their opinion...
or maybe shall i req to be based in kch... at least i can go to pearth....
AA will be flyin' there soon.....in february lah....
Shld i........
Ish ni yang susah nie
aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh stress lagi......
hahaha oklah gotta go frens...updates.....

updates.....

Many things has surely happened over the past few weeks.
My everly bz schedule, frens came back frm another continent.
My life upside down.Trying to juggle everything, not enuff rest
and......gosh i need a break frm all of these.
Since my personal life is on fire....time for promotion....
Work is great but tiring, life sucks...big time..yet ok lah...
Mett eddie yesterday for makan-makan...apa lagi nak buat bila off kan.
Pity him as he had to listen to all of my complaints.
Eejatt dah selamat balik home....yessss malaysia is the country
australia is the home...for him. Mine hopin to be NYC.
I hope to have my big break soon. I wanna move out frm here b4
i have another big break down....Give me a break i'm 30 n not
fabulous.....so birthday comin' soon......
waitin' ............ paris soon...............

Are u Ready 2 Jump?

watch it gewd...
not another review here...
anne hathaway next big thing in hollywood....
THAT'S ALL......

that "bus" class

ok...been kind of bz, as always...
Had airbus class last week n met some nice n experience
Mandala air crew.Met farain whom just back frm maternity
together with mama zuraini.ohhh yess picture attached ,
me with mandala crew, farain in door drill action
n group pic.Just imagine 3 yrs ago i was trained at
shoplots for boeing but now airbus with complete facility.
AA does made me proud at times.
Very beautiful training school indeed....

gambar kapal

ok, tadi masa transit lepak ngan othman (tiada dlm gambar...)
nampak cantik plak kapal ku.....

updates................

ok......banyak gambar kan...
hari nie teman tina n yati borong kasut n at the same
time sempat pulak pose hahahaha
banyak gambar kan .....tahlah tak ada apa plak nak cite....
ohhh yess yg pakai baju merah tu elsie , masa makan mc'd
after flight tadi.....yg rambut panjang tina n me. Yati yg
rambut pendek....ohh yess gambar yg bertiga tu masa kat melaka
ngan kamil skali.....Hari yg panjang, penat n happy.....hehehehe

S@# with an ex..............

Gosh this must be crazy.....how do you feel about having s@# with an ex.
Ok ...admit it...i did it....
This must be crazy....
Already had this break up over a week ago ... yet i still c him everyday...
He'll find reasons to c me... and me just being ok all the time...
Am i being too flexible here...
Gosh ... i guess being in n out of love for soooooooooooo many times has made me
a person without a "heart".
Is it? its like things that r not supposed to happen did happened.
Maybe that's what happened when u were with someone for such a long time.
Seeing each other has become a routine that you can never quit.
Is it too late to quit now? Its like addiction to cigarettes , favourite food and.....
When will this finally be over.....
At the moment i just gotta go with the flow... n just c what's gonna happen...
To be back together...........

On the other hand i've been making myself bz with a lot of frens.
I've been meeting eddie on weekly basis. Meeting sha who is currently having her
bf visiting from NYC..... wow that's kewl...n hot...

Oh yeah talking about work.... i flew with two gorgeous crew yrsterday... Naomi n Elsie...they were very nice n yes they r fun to be with. Just imagine doing TWU n KBR flights that took more than 8 hrs. phew.....n i'll be doing the same sectors again tomorrow. They were both hard working which was very very good...
Wish i had that same set of crew everyday...or at least close to that.

Hello! to those who think that preety people r lazy.
Going through this hard times( is it...)i've always encountered people that lifted me up and raised my spirit high. People that touches me....( no that fun kay ...)
not to mention people who inspires me....
Ok that's all about me me me....
whatever you do have fun n take thing as they come....

love Posh xxx

is there an age limit?

hmmm, how about turning 30, fat n single .....
does it sounds good to you?
well, that's a fact,for me at least...
Compared to last relationship failure that i had, this doesn't
seems to be hurtful....
It was a five years relationship....
and i'm still seeing him like we never break up....
Being frens with an ex has never been my thing.....
Gosh...is this a new age of breaking up?
Maybe i'm more prepared this time......
Whatever it's KL......i'm back...
Being single means, continue going to gym without failure.......
Get lots of new clothes........
Be seen again...a.k.a. goin out more often...
Hey... people i'm out frn the jungle...again....
macam happy pulak kan..........
I knoe this is a bad year for me in everything....
But for as long as i live ....will keep on fightin'

Merepek......ikut suka hati aku

hei people,

ok, ok ,..... i know i've talked abt this before but for FUCKIN LAST time i'm BORED !
apa nak buat bila cuti, tak ada activity. BF in AMS and enjoying the parade there. Cuti tak approve , kena mengamuk lagi kat rostering FAD nie. Tak dapat pergi kenduri kat Taiping on 19th nie. STRESS! ye ke. Esok stby 1 dah ada cuti changes dah, gie jbr n lgk...waaaaaaThen next day g chiang mai n then stby lagi......
stressssssssssssss................... apa lah kengkawan aku buat...
ADA KA PATUT MEMBUTA JA DUA HARI NIE....
aaargh......... dah gila...nasib baik crew akak ada steward hensem esok...hahahaha
Dua hari berturut-turut fly ngan dia....mmmmmmm
OK frens...don't worry no more scandal......nanti akak amik gambar kay...tapi nanti tunjuk kat kengkawan jer.....
Apalah aku merepek nie.....sebabkan akak merepek hari nie...so amik lah gambar nie.....
nie masa hari tu lepak ngan geng kat apa tah nama tempat tu....
ejat mesti makan hati kan.... tak cukup korumlah...nanti tunggu kau balik kay bye................................uwekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk wanna puke for myself now....
ok done.....

Is stability the end of fun? Is there a life after 30?

I bet that many of us want to have a stability, it could either be in life, love, money, career and ........When u have them all, does is mean u r no longer fun.Turning old at young age. Well me and couple of over 30 people still think we r young. R we? .....
when u have these things, what do you want next?
what ur next aim in life? some of us may think that we could make it much better in these areas. Put it this way, i just wanna hav a bf, cute one, a career, some money and vacations whenever i want.... just basic things in life. i've achieved that and i'm the kind of person whose just happy driving an aveo and live in a small house.
So what's next for me or the poeple like me. Some may consider that we might have a small appetite for success. Does it?
Well maybe i'm the kind of person who is afraid taking the next big step or the next big dream in life. Is dying while living is an acceptence?
many questions kept on coming towards me. Should i take the next big step in life or being stable at the current situation is all that i want. Something which is very confusing yet interesting....
Is there a life and a fun one after 30.
frens; don't suggest me to get married please.
Birthday is coming by December and hopefully i'll be able to answer my own questions.
It seems that evryone around me has things goin on around them. That keeps them goin' unlike me who has nothing to look foward to. Is it the end is near or have i not recovered from that breakdown. Will it ends or is this life?

Lance bass gay!

It's official he' gay...kenapa lah bukan si jc tu
.............arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
congrats to those yg make the
correct predictions about him.....

do we need to recharge ourselves ?

well, just came back frm Bali....yesss again. My second trip for the year. My fren max was not there ...he was in paris...the rest of the gang andre, indra n oji were all there....Tak balik penang again lah kan...

Oh yesss, the reason i went to bali again was actually to recharge myself...after all the hectic flying life...sad to say...a bit recharged n still stress ughhhhhh!

I didn't go out a lot, just rest n sleep my the help of some medicine my doc fren gave me.Seems jeff n eric did enjoy their trip. I was in bad mood. Should have gone there alone.

Next trip.... don know lah maybe jauh sikit...

Talk abt recharging, i guess no matter how much u like ur job u still need to a brake sometimes. Gosh ... n may i suggest 4 times a year. Take it before it actually burns u... Just like me burning out... Gosh... there's nothing great about reaching that big 30 in your life.

Well, being a very posite n hopefull as ever... I'll try to make the best of the worst. Should i be my old self. guess.. my old frens would have known this.... s....ing with 3/4 of kl m**......gila ka. Perhaps.....what if...hmmmm

Well whatever u guys do just have fun...As for me just trying to get that peace of mind that i've been longing for........ciow......

and as usual a pic from confession tour.....

updates.......

well,...been a while since my last update here.
so, what have i been up to?
macam biasa , fly , fly and fly......
macam-macam yg jadi kat company at the moment....
tak tahu lah berapa lama lagi nak fly....
Love the flight but lately banyak sangat musuh dlm selimut.
new crew plak....
tah lah.....

So planning nak g bali again with my bf and a friend of ours....
Yeah i know bali again.... tapi apa nak buat. That's is the place where
i can actually relax n think.Not to mention my frens there....
gosh i miss them all... kira - kira satu tahun adalah dalam 4 kali g bali....
gila jugak kan....

Oh yesss...... the other week i g tgk movie siam tapi translated into indonesian.
Cerita tah apa-apalah tapi yg best, it actually reminds me of my frens....
tah apa lah ejat buat. senyap jer ... tak update blog pun. nanti ptg sikit nak call eddie lah....

My old school fren plak ada wedding ceremony kat penang this 27th may but i've already made plans to bali. so mcm mana , frens versus holz?

nak jugak jumpa all of them. banayk dah yg kahwin n have kids... Me maintain jer....
don't lah kan... bila nak update this blog again...

Two resolutions...
number 1 , nak balik penang after bali n nak jumpa kengkawan lama.
number 2, cuba jumpa kengkawan lama kat kl. eric , sk , eddie, mel , sham....

so hopefully lah, bless u all........

OH YES CONFESSION TOUR BY QUEEN M, jgn lupa.....
KAT BAWAH NIE PLAK COSTUME YG DESIGNED BY JPG UNTUK QUEEN M pakai masa confession tour... c ya n take care,...muaks!

ok its mmmmmm time !

amazing tak gambar nie? fantabulous kan ? just lovin it. my inspiration n motivation ......... mesti kena kutuk lagi lah ngan edddie kan........ eeejat
mana kau gie...tak balas mesej pun....... enjoy

that 30's syndrome......

well, that's what i like to call it. Some of you may or may not realise that when u are about to reach 30 or in the early thirty; you 'll definetly has it.
what are the sign n symptoms:-

1) You will become very demotivated to do things. Eg:-
a) stop going to the gym 'cause you think that its not important.
b) Stop going to clubs 'cause you dont know anyone there n you r getting fat.
c) You don't bother to change your wardrobe n just wear what u have n what ur
partner buys for u.
d) No matter how much you are trying to change you stuck there....
e) Thinking of changing ur jobs n don't mind living below ur own standard.

Well, basically you have everything, bf, good job , good family but it seems that things that make u feel happy before are no longer doing that. U will feel like that there's nothing more exciting coming your way and nothing for you to look foward to.
Remember the days when you were waiting for your paycheck n getting excited that over the weekend you'd be around ur frens at the club n looking great. Well sad to say that is over. You feel like you wanna change everything.

In my case u feel like u wanna move to another country. I used to feel gewd whenever i wanna go to work but now not anymore. Things will get worst when something not so gewd happens at ur work place. Gosh ! this is bad.

Ur life is basically static n not movin' at all. No more eagerness n determination.

As for me i started to get it about 2 years back n with this year being the worst.

There's nothing u can do except for trying' hard to move on. Get with frens who has or had the same problem. You definetly can learn smethin' from them

Maybe this was what happened to MC ( mariah carey lah ) .


Breakdown....
but look at her now she's back n better than ever. I hope i can do that....

So to those of you who has the same problem do write in to me n share it kay.....

stresssss

macam mana nie tak kurus.....semenjak dah tua nie dah malas nak diet, malas nak gie gym..............tolong tak der inspirasi. oprah pun dah kurus dan gemuk balik. aku maintain gemuk.......sebelum uniform pecah kenalah diet. jadi ker well. keep u posted.... u waaaaaaaaaaaaa alasan nak cari bf baru....hahaha matilah kena belasah ngan jeff......

alamak! matilah aku kali nie, gambar kapal lagi kan. amacam meletop tak.......hahahaha very the ...... ala-ala man u airlines. Tapi tak sampai lagi kapal nie but very the soon kay......( janji tak der gambar kapal lagi lepas nie )....boleh percaya kot......hehehehehe