Friday, November 15, 2013

been a long time ...

it's true when people said that you will start to write again when something hits you.

in my case this is so true. I need a place to pour what I feel inside ...
well for starts, I've left AAX and will be going back to AK.

broke off with my by of 2 years and this all happened when my birthday is coming ...
sad hah .... well and the story  goes ...

the part where he didn't feel for me anymore, the part where he cheated once on me were all forgiven ... why ? 'cause I still want him in my life ...

but for now, am just gonna leave him alone until he misses me and wanting me back.
though too many questions about why this all happened and what had gone wrong?
why cheat? why no feelings anymore.... I know the fact that 2nd year is the hardest ...
need to survive this and am pretty sure it will be fine after that ...

at the same time, still worried that someone will take him and offer him love ...
LIBRA can't never resist love and care when someone offer it to them ...
I hope that this will be ended soon ..

I pretty much have mistakes as well, not being able to cater him, having fun "outside" ....
It was all because of my own insecurities ...

it was a crazy thinking that if one day he leaves me, I would still have some fling to fall into ....
NOT supposed to do this ...
Don't even know how to continue my life without him ....

the house that we built together, the families, the friends ... everything will be different now ....
EVRYTHING .... I truly don't welcome this ....

 

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