comeback ...

not really a comeback but it has been a while since i last wrote stuff in here .. not even sure if anyone read this blog anymore ...

my life hasn't been that interesting ... not for now but since my life is in the place where everything's turning 360 degrees ... expect a lot of stories and more drama ..

career is doing good with a lot of craziness and am loving every minute of it ... what can i say my career promises happiness on both worlds .. best of both worlds ... so Miley Cyrus ... Hannah Montana anyone .. kind a too old for that ...

I'll be going on a working journey around the globe beginning next week ... kind a scared too go back full time to the sky but a little butterfly in the stomach should be good in a sense that i shall be more prepared ...

my weight is going steady at the moment though i'm hoping to loose another 10 kg or so ....

my mantra... zero is the new hero ...

Seoul is coming ... so my K-pop dream is going to be alive ... fashion smashion will be at its best...

again ...

a very last minute trip to Perth last week had somehow turned into a rehab. A two days away from the office was so relaxing. No e-mails, no calls hence no problem .....

It was cold and windy ... no shopping this time around as I have just got back from Bangkok at the end of last month. All i did was parading /cat walking with my new clothes that i bought in Bangkok and drink coffee and lots of walk around the city.

I have a month or so before heading back to the sky ... so at the moment i'm putting a lot of effort to finish up many many things, the crew appraisals, projects and bla bla bla ......

F called me earlier to say hello and reminded me that tomorrow will be our first day of 'Ramadhan' .

His call made me realized how much i miss him ... definitely be heading back to Penang at the end of the month for his birthday ...

never after ...

where's the coffee drinker ?

movie at Paragon

so so cheap

gosh ... finally i'm writing something again ..kind a neglecting this blog for a while....

no worries people ... am not gonna close as i believe in the near future i'll be writing more and more as... I'LL BE GOING BACK TO THE SKY ..... should i be happy ? yes ... should i not be happy for leaving my current post ? yes ... but life is about making decision .. take a chance and hope for the best ...

but before that happens i have lots n lots of work to be done ... well kind a ... make sure that everything is in place before i leave ...

someones said to me, don't expect the grass to be greener on the other side... but .... i'm taking chances ... (remember Celine Dion album ?)

it is not about what position you are in ( top, bottom, versatile ) but what serves you best ... hahahha

oh... another note, i have just came back from BKK last week ... it was all fun and great shopping and great *** u guys know what ... !!!

F was with me in BKK so it was all Xtra Xtra Xtra fun ... he was cool and a good companion ...

Oh .... BKK is peaceful now ... so u G people can go back there and have a great party and shopping ... the city of life is back and i'm so glad that all those riots are all over and hoping that everyone have learnt their lessons...

and some photos for you guys too

FAT isn't PHAT

same goes to you Mariah !!!

gosh... ever since i quit my herbal tea... my weight has been hiking up ... reason why i quit it simply because it isn't working anymore ... hate it ... !!! i'm so feeling like Mariah at the moment ... been hitting gym lately but not much differences ... getting toned but still fat ..... well not that fat ... but urghhh !!!! just don't like it ... not since size zero is a hero ...

tonight i'm gonna take the best meal ever ... this should be my last for a very very long time ... then i shall start my new diet regime tomorrow ... the new stuff shall help me in the weight department and it will arrive at my door steps tomorrow ...

can't wait ... am planning to loose 10kg in a month .. i wanna be thin as my job requires me to do so ... to loose 20 kg in total is my target ... hope this works ... finger crossed people !!!

on another note, my company will go through a major changes and most probably i'll be back flying ... yay !!! Korea here i come ... SUJU here i come ... 2PM, 2AM ... can't wait ...

so u see loosing weight is a must .... yes yes yes ...!!!

POSH ( not just a word in a dictionary)

eat, breath ...posh ...maybe not eat ...

BittenFashion

it has been a while since i last posted an article on my very own fashion line... i'm ready to go as i have set up a blog for it. Please visit BittenFashion for your retail therapy ... As promised it's gonna be a fashion line for all ... ladies and gents, male and female or even if you are just in between. I'm gonna start with dresses for the ladies as well as shirts for guys.... it's gonna be a collection of 9 of my best designs. Each designs are limited to 9 pieces only.

an interview with....

so rain , how are things going on?

been good... almost everything

like?

my new car is coming out and been busy with work but happy

what car?

Mazda 2 ...

any plan for another holiday ?

yes, it's in the plan ... maybe after the casual BKK trip

going alone?

maybe with friends and maybe going alone .. don't know yet

besides BKK where else to?

somewhere further where i haven't been for quite a while

how's love life?

great... which love life are you talking about?

all of them ...

yes, they all been great

heard that you've been hittin' gym again?

yes, so so true ...about time don't u think ?

what's next in your life?

be happy, that's all ...

.......

there's something about autumn that spells LONELINESS ... as what i'm feeling at this moment ... can't cure i guess.. no cure for that ... but it's a state of mind therefore i choose to be happy ... so being happy i shall be ...

am kind a keep myself busy with work and my fashion line which is materialising as i'm writing this post ... i'm kind a not sure what to do .. this is supposed to be a great year for ... perhaps in other field i guess ...

am doing another final interview tomorrow, in hopes of looking for a new breed of FA ....

yeah whatever ....

ever after ....

since i got back from BKK, was feeling all down and depress again .. so what's the best way to move on ... get busy with work ... yep that's the way its gotta be ... i'm so not in the mood for anything .. thinking of going to the office in a while though i'm supposed to be still on leave but what the hell ... so many things to settle down plus all the work that i've gotta prepared for before starting my office madness marathon ...

on the other note, BITTEN is coming alive ... so many details gotta go through ... done with the concept and designs that i want, just the business dealing part, so much work but gotta be fun ... gonna start this at a very small scale ... 'cause i'm new hence not having any experience in the fashion industry ...

all by myself, am gonna go through this shit though it's again and again ... but hey that' s life for me ... it's hard but there's no way to stop ... and this time i'm not gonna run somewhere else and starting everything new... as i said, some people just stuck with you for the rest of your life... in my case it's Jeff. I can't run from him and neither can he ... we are just gonna stuck with each other yet won't be able to be together ,we know that it wouldn't be working ...

as i'm trying to comfort myself going through this difficult moment both at work and personal life, i shall not fail at it .. i hope this is just another phase of my life that i have no choice but to go through with it ....

hey take a look at my BKK picture kay ...

still.....

who would have thought that after all these years... it still hurts ....

here i am in bkk ... thinking of having fun and put my head together before going back to the office... now that is all gone....

my ex is here with me at the same hotel and he's with someone..

so called his house mate for the past 3 years which is off course i've found it from his so called house mate ...

him having a house mate and only two of them stayed together ... hmmm big, huge question ...

i thought that my heart has gone buffed and stronger over the years ...

it failed me.... big time

i keep asking myself ... is that his house mate or what ... i've asked him and being a typical him... he didn't give an answer..

he was the reason why i almost cancel this trip ....

it still hurts ...

why do i feel this way ... i can't be me ...

maybe will cut this trip shorter ....

doesn't he knows that i'm hurt...

so not me .... i'm down... yet again and again ...

life chapter 2 ...

i've just got back from London and the trip was fun, fun and fun ...

felt tired as i couldn't sleep at all when i was there plus i've not been flying for quite a while... long haul i mean ... the trip definitely encouraged me to fly back ... a haaa honey bee ... i'm considering it seriously ... did a little bit of shopping ... a little ... take note on that ...

on another note, i'm afraid that i'll be cancelling my BKK trip as situations there is unsafe... riots are everywhere and people killing each other ... worst than the last year riots which was also during SONGKRAN ... there goes my holiday ... so no water festival for me this year ...

What makes me upset is that why are people go against each other in such manner ... Thai tourism is loosing millions of dollars for the last couple of years.... it all happened during peak season/water festival ... why ? hope they will learn from Malaysian that riots is definitely NOT a solution... see what happened to some Malaysian .. loosing jobs and getting injured for nothing... though Malaysian only had "mini" riots ... 'cause no one died but the impact on economy took some time to recover ...

come on people of Thai, we love going to BKK and personally it's my rehab place. Don't destroy it, no one will gain but only loosing .... STOP at once ...

Is this human rights or an act of stupidity ???

posh:- wish i had a transformer robot to save the world ... thoughts !!!