until when ?

i'm fucking tired right now and almost going crazy .... my last 3 days were crazy .. i don't even think that crazy is right ... maybe turbulence ... maybe .. yeah so so right ... i had never experienced what i had gone through for the last 3 days ... like NEVER in my flying career ... shit happens and it hit me this time .. FUCK !!! am considering another option at the moment ... can't even think.. system down .. brain damaged ... heart ..... never mind about heart ... i don't have any ...

forget about what i've been through.. let's talk about something better and more positive ( trying to be Big O here - Oprah that is) am going BKK for one night only trip ... just to celebrate my new year with my X ... duh !!! 'cause no one else ask me ... then off to HND - Haneda ... as in Tokyo, Japan .. get it ? working trip ... duh again !!! what positive ? nothing positive here as i am having another meltdown moment ... or days ... will my 2012 be like this ?

Oh ok ... SPICE dinner with the boys was awesome and FABS !!! after many great years of being friends ... we are still the same ... except that everyone is getting fat ... !!! haha time to hit the gym guys ... photos ? welll have to wait for the guys to update their FB ... then i shall put some here kay ...

OK .. i'm signing off for now, gonna off my hp and the hell with the world ..I 'M TIRED !!!!! fuck you, you and you !!!!

no no no ... not u readers .... just an anger management ...

another journey

i'm not feeling well at all as i'm writing this entry to you lots ... my body system is down with fever and severe headache ... migraine that is ... haven't been hit this bad after quite a while ... nausea and vomiting comes naturally ... hehehe ..... if i'm still not doing good, i'll be heading to the clinic again later today ... not a good feeling at all ...

i've just got back from Tehran in Iran couple of days ago ... the trip was so so ... weather was cold and there was no food to eat ... well literally ... stayed there for almost a week.. a long stay in other places i would have said yay !!! but in Tehran ... errrr ... maybe no more ... thank you very much ..

however, am still gonna share some pics which i've taken for you lots ... arrived in Theran on public holiday, which means for the next two days, there were no shops opened hence no food to eat ... on another note, looking for rice could be quite an adventure ...hahah ... yes it was ... indeed .... some of us may think that Iran could be conservative .. u guys know what ? they are not ... though the ladies are all covered with "tudung" (a piece of cloth to cover head), they are allowed to show a bit of hair and mind you, they coloured their hair. They were always seen in full make up in which off course enhanced their good looks. If they are allowed to enter "miss universe", surely they will win .. u can also find couples dating at the park ... not quite sure if they are married ... i guess they are very much influenced by the Europeans 'cause Iran is not that far from the Europeans blocks ... ohhh yes, if you the chance to visit Tehran, don't forget to visit the mountains.. all covered with snow and a good place to appreciate mother nature ...

Enough about Tehran, here comes the annual dinner, my X team had a performance and i was in drag ... OMG yet again ... this time around i have more confidence and more relax as to compared to my last "drag session" a year ago in BKK. The performance was well received by the audience as we did it differently from the rest ... check out photos i've uploaded for you guys ... ok seems like i can't write anymore ... i'm going clinic again as i'm feeling so so week now ... so guys please TC and i'll be writing again soonest

P/S ;- expect great stories from JAPAN ... Merry X'mas and Happy New Year ...

that 34 !!!

finally got a bit of time to chill .. this weekend has been nothing but relaxation ... got back from Jeddah again and celebrated my 34th B'day with my best friends... ohhh did i mentioned that they took me for a dinner ... nice one... i truly enjoyed the dinner and the laughter .. a small but meaningful way to celebrate my day ... ohhh and i've bought this little something something for myself courtesy of GUCCI.. not that they gave it to me for free but hey i've decided to reward myself ..

on another note i'm kind a scared of my age ... how long can i keep my youthful looks ..

age is surely catching up on me ... i need more and more sleep to recover from my hectic schedule ... kind a crazy at times but hey that's life and i've just got to live with it ....

it's coming to the end of the year and i'm hoping to have a good X-mas ...another Gucci perhaps ...

what do i want for next year ... a simple and more meaningful life ... i gave up on trying to have a steady boyfriend instead i shall continue having an open relationship ... the one that i'm in at the moment ... hmmm ... not quite sure if i should call it a relationship ... hehehe ... anyhow i'm happy 'cause i've decided to be happy ...

hoping for more Bangkok trip... try to be nice to all of my Xs ... and try to loose more weight ...

posh gotta be fab rite ?

for you guys i've got a few photos that am gonna share with u guys ... just to keep you lots entertained rather than reading about my not so entertaining life ...

am done with the cleaning up in my room and now am gonna clean my lap top ... rearrange some files and put everything in place...

OK people , i gotta go ... have a great life will ya !!!

where have u been?

just got back from Tianjin a couple of weeks ago with a couple of friends. The train ride, the monorail ride and lots of walking, bit of shopping and the cold weather ... i had peace of mind ... i love to travel 'cause it gives me a sense of freedom.. re-evaluate life and makes me think and appreciate life better ...

as i'm writing to you guys ... am packing up for my another trip to Jeddah .. hope to do some prayers and sight seeing .. hope for more than my last trip to Jeddah ..

where am i going next ? hmmmm ... Korea for that K-POP experience though today's news is not so good.. i'm hoping for the best .. i wonder where would the K-POP stars will live if things there are not safe anymore ... wait the minute .. they can come and stay at my house ... hehehe

oh .. and i'm hoping for a trip to Japan as well ...

which reminds me of my up coming B-DAY !!! i don't celebrate getting old but a little trip would do me good... hehehe ... thank you in advance BOSS !!!

gotta go to bed pretty soon so guys please enjoy the photos i've taken ...

posh:- what's my new image ?????

HDY

fancy exotic food ?

when it comes to haadyai, most of us would think this city as a place to shop for TOTO ( comforter) or a place for party or a place for plastic surgery ( famous for Dr. Nara ) ...

mind you, Dr Nara is like a local icon and everywhere you go in Haadyai, people know him ...

there are more haadyai could offer .. like the floating market ... very interesting ... and super duper cheap ... this is a floating market with HALAL food that tastes so good ...

i've managed to visit the floating market in Haadyai and it was a superb experience ...

you could buy food and eat it by the side of the river and the place was very clean...

how could i forget drinking from bamboo and the taste of otak-otak ( seafood cooked with herbs and spices )

those who have no idea where Haadyai is, it's located at the southern part of thailand and is connected by AirAsia flights both from KUL and BKK ...

The clubbing scene was amazing, live band and pop music at its best ... managed to visit 2 clubs when i was there ...

Guess what? they play lots and lots of k-pop ... so i had a blast ...

like most of the clubs in BKK, there was no cover charge and drinks were cheap ..

i don't drink as i made a pledge to myself not to drink during this Hajj season ... drinking as in liquor ... get it people ?

am on two days off currently and still waiting for the latest instructions to fly to Jeddah ...

wanna visit Mecca soon ...

posh:- holy mode

greetings....

hi all, what have you guys been doing lately?

i'm in the midst of exploration, well, travelling from various parts of the world to this place called Jeddah. Plenty of photos to share with many great and not so good experiences.

The story later, now here are the photos.

comeback ...

not really a comeback but it has been a while since i last wrote stuff in here .. not even sure if anyone read this blog anymore ...

my life hasn't been that interesting ... not for now but since my life is in the place where everything's turning 360 degrees ... expect a lot of stories and more drama ..

career is doing good with a lot of craziness and am loving every minute of it ... what can i say my career promises happiness on both worlds .. best of both worlds ... so Miley Cyrus ... Hannah Montana anyone .. kind a too old for that ...

I'll be going on a working journey around the globe beginning next week ... kind a scared too go back full time to the sky but a little butterfly in the stomach should be good in a sense that i shall be more prepared ...

my weight is going steady at the moment though i'm hoping to loose another 10 kg or so ....

my mantra... zero is the new hero ...

Seoul is coming ... so my K-pop dream is going to be alive ... fashion smashion will be at its best...

again ...

a very last minute trip to Perth last week had somehow turned into a rehab. A two days away from the office was so relaxing. No e-mails, no calls hence no problem .....

It was cold and windy ... no shopping this time around as I have just got back from Bangkok at the end of last month. All i did was parading /cat walking with my new clothes that i bought in Bangkok and drink coffee and lots of walk around the city.

I have a month or so before heading back to the sky ... so at the moment i'm putting a lot of effort to finish up many many things, the crew appraisals, projects and bla bla bla ......

F called me earlier to say hello and reminded me that tomorrow will be our first day of 'Ramadhan' .

His call made me realized how much i miss him ... definitely be heading back to Penang at the end of the month for his birthday ...

never after ...

where's the coffee drinker ?

movie at Paragon

so so cheap

gosh ... finally i'm writing something again ..kind a neglecting this blog for a while....

no worries people ... am not gonna close as i believe in the near future i'll be writing more and more as... I'LL BE GOING BACK TO THE SKY ..... should i be happy ? yes ... should i not be happy for leaving my current post ? yes ... but life is about making decision .. take a chance and hope for the best ...

but before that happens i have lots n lots of work to be done ... well kind a ... make sure that everything is in place before i leave ...

someones said to me, don't expect the grass to be greener on the other side... but .... i'm taking chances ... (remember Celine Dion album ?)

it is not about what position you are in ( top, bottom, versatile ) but what serves you best ... hahahha

oh... another note, i have just came back from BKK last week ... it was all fun and great shopping and great *** u guys know what ... !!!

F was with me in BKK so it was all Xtra Xtra Xtra fun ... he was cool and a good companion ...

Oh .... BKK is peaceful now ... so u G people can go back there and have a great party and shopping ... the city of life is back and i'm so glad that all those riots are all over and hoping that everyone have learnt their lessons...

and some photos for you guys too

FAT isn't PHAT

same goes to you Mariah !!!

gosh... ever since i quit my herbal tea... my weight has been hiking up ... reason why i quit it simply because it isn't working anymore ... hate it ... !!! i'm so feeling like Mariah at the moment ... been hitting gym lately but not much differences ... getting toned but still fat ..... well not that fat ... but urghhh !!!! just don't like it ... not since size zero is a hero ...

tonight i'm gonna take the best meal ever ... this should be my last for a very very long time ... then i shall start my new diet regime tomorrow ... the new stuff shall help me in the weight department and it will arrive at my door steps tomorrow ...

can't wait ... am planning to loose 10kg in a month .. i wanna be thin as my job requires me to do so ... to loose 20 kg in total is my target ... hope this works ... finger crossed people !!!

on another note, my company will go through a major changes and most probably i'll be back flying ... yay !!! Korea here i come ... SUJU here i come ... 2PM, 2AM ... can't wait ...

so u see loosing weight is a must .... yes yes yes ...!!!

POSH ( not just a word in a dictionary)

eat, breath ...posh ...maybe not eat ...

BittenFashion

it has been a while since i last posted an article on my very own fashion line... i'm ready to go as i have set up a blog for it. Please visit BittenFashion for your retail therapy ... As promised it's gonna be a fashion line for all ... ladies and gents, male and female or even if you are just in between. I'm gonna start with dresses for the ladies as well as shirts for guys.... it's gonna be a collection of 9 of my best designs. Each designs are limited to 9 pieces only.

an interview with....

so rain , how are things going on?

been good... almost everything

like?

my new car is coming out and been busy with work but happy

what car?

Mazda 2 ...

any plan for another holiday ?

yes, it's in the plan ... maybe after the casual BKK trip

going alone?

maybe with friends and maybe going alone .. don't know yet

besides BKK where else to?

somewhere further where i haven't been for quite a while

how's love life?

great... which love life are you talking about?

all of them ...

yes, they all been great

heard that you've been hittin' gym again?

yes, so so true ...about time don't u think ?

what's next in your life?

be happy, that's all ...

.......

there's something about autumn that spells LONELINESS ... as what i'm feeling at this moment ... can't cure i guess.. no cure for that ... but it's a state of mind therefore i choose to be happy ... so being happy i shall be ...

am kind a keep myself busy with work and my fashion line which is materialising as i'm writing this post ... i'm kind a not sure what to do .. this is supposed to be a great year for ... perhaps in other field i guess ...

am doing another final interview tomorrow, in hopes of looking for a new breed of FA ....

yeah whatever ....

ever after ....

since i got back from BKK, was feeling all down and depress again .. so what's the best way to move on ... get busy with work ... yep that's the way its gotta be ... i'm so not in the mood for anything .. thinking of going to the office in a while though i'm supposed to be still on leave but what the hell ... so many things to settle down plus all the work that i've gotta prepared for before starting my office madness marathon ...

on the other note, BITTEN is coming alive ... so many details gotta go through ... done with the concept and designs that i want, just the business dealing part, so much work but gotta be fun ... gonna start this at a very small scale ... 'cause i'm new hence not having any experience in the fashion industry ...

all by myself, am gonna go through this shit though it's again and again ... but hey that' s life for me ... it's hard but there's no way to stop ... and this time i'm not gonna run somewhere else and starting everything new... as i said, some people just stuck with you for the rest of your life... in my case it's Jeff. I can't run from him and neither can he ... we are just gonna stuck with each other yet won't be able to be together ,we know that it wouldn't be working ...

as i'm trying to comfort myself going through this difficult moment both at work and personal life, i shall not fail at it .. i hope this is just another phase of my life that i have no choice but to go through with it ....

hey take a look at my BKK picture kay ...

still.....

who would have thought that after all these years... it still hurts ....

here i am in bkk ... thinking of having fun and put my head together before going back to the office... now that is all gone....

my ex is here with me at the same hotel and he's with someone..

so called his house mate for the past 3 years which is off course i've found it from his so called house mate ...

him having a house mate and only two of them stayed together ... hmmm big, huge question ...

i thought that my heart has gone buffed and stronger over the years ...

it failed me.... big time

i keep asking myself ... is that his house mate or what ... i've asked him and being a typical him... he didn't give an answer..

he was the reason why i almost cancel this trip ....

it still hurts ...

why do i feel this way ... i can't be me ...

maybe will cut this trip shorter ....

doesn't he knows that i'm hurt...

so not me .... i'm down... yet again and again ...

life chapter 2 ...

i've just got back from London and the trip was fun, fun and fun ...

felt tired as i couldn't sleep at all when i was there plus i've not been flying for quite a while... long haul i mean ... the trip definitely encouraged me to fly back ... a haaa honey bee ... i'm considering it seriously ... did a little bit of shopping ... a little ... take note on that ...

on another note, i'm afraid that i'll be cancelling my BKK trip as situations there is unsafe... riots are everywhere and people killing each other ... worst than the last year riots which was also during SONGKRAN ... there goes my holiday ... so no water festival for me this year ...

What makes me upset is that why are people go against each other in such manner ... Thai tourism is loosing millions of dollars for the last couple of years.... it all happened during peak season/water festival ... why ? hope they will learn from Malaysian that riots is definitely NOT a solution... see what happened to some Malaysian .. loosing jobs and getting injured for nothing... though Malaysian only had "mini" riots ... 'cause no one died but the impact on economy took some time to recover ...

come on people of Thai, we love going to BKK and personally it's my rehab place. Don't destroy it, no one will gain but only loosing .... STOP at once ...

Is this human rights or an act of stupidity ???

posh:- wish i had a transformer robot to save the world ... thoughts !!!

will it be forever....

Off late I've been very happy with my personal life.. you guys should know why ?

That special someone been making me happy ... though it's complicated ...

I've finally got to say that I'll be heading to Songkran in BKK this year ... it's a water festival and all about partying on the street ... can't wait ... you guys know that i've almost cancelled this trip as my X decided to bring his scandal a.k.a. his F.B. with him... so so pissed off with him...

But I've changed my mind... that special someone is coming with me ... so it's a CELEBRATION !!! ( sing it like Madonna baby )... no more loneliness during Songkran...

Ohhh yess.. tomorrow I'll be flying as an operating crew to CGK and PEN .... haha nice one... it has been a while since i last operated as a Purser on the A 320 aircraft. So i'll be looking forward to it....

On the 7th of April I'll be heading to STN over in London ... It has been a year now since my last trip.. nervous but can't wait ... shopping shopping shopping ... POSH @ VUITTON, isn't it a fashion match in heaven ... ?

wish me all the best and plenty of happiness in life guys ... please baby please ...

POSH;- I'm off to bed now ... and to LAILA welcome to the world of Bloggers....

and i say ....

ok..finally i wanna say something about my status... so i'm answering almost all of your questions...

am i single?

yes, ' cause i'm not REALLY attached with anyone...

am i seeing someone?

yes, a few of them....

why?

'cause i haven't get what i want, which is "the can't live without kind of love"...

who are they?

3 of them actually...

names ?

can't tell...my best friends know who they are..

are you still staying with one of them?

yes....

who do you love most?

the one that is not staying with me and very much makes me smile every time...

so you see to explain is really difficult... i do hope that i have answered some of your questions. Yes, i will settle down when i have the not so complicated kind of relationship. I'm happy for now.... very very happy... it's not easy being me though people see me as a non committed guy. I have a big heart for LOVE but i'm just being careful with it ... and i know that i'm not getting any younger ....

As Micheal Bubble' said, haven't met you yet !!!